Why I Run

Recently some of my friends asked me why I run every day. Let me show you why....

That is why. I am over weight, though some think that I am crazy to think this merely because I weigh less than they do, I still have my own body to worry about, not theirs nor their self esteem. I am myself and my own person and I worry about only me at this point. I weigh 177.4 (or last time I checked) and I have run every day since Tuesday (aside from Thursday I had wicked cramps!) But dare you ask me why I run every day. Well there you have it. I am not happy in my own body. 

Yes, I am in a serious relationship of 3 years, yes I am comfortable and confident in that relationship, so men or "attention" are not the reasons I run, or lose this weight. I run for me, I run  for the person I wan to become. The person I want to see in the mirror when I wake up. I look around, I know what is unrealistic and what is unhealthy. I do not want any of those things. But I do want to be 130 pounds. That's not "too skinny" or "unhealthy" I am 5'5" I can pull that off.

What really upsets me though, is when someone gets mad at me for wanting to better myself. They want to lecture me on how I think my body should be treated!! I'm serious, I have had my sister and even some of my family, sit me down and tell me that I am working to hard, or that my goals are to skinny. Listen up, this is what I have to say to you, I am who I am, I want a better body for me, not you, so your opinions and negativity are not welcome. Seriously, I have hear this lecture from my sister, who is currently at 260IB and who wants to get down to 130IB tell me that 125 is unhealthy. BA!Hahahahah. Seriously? Really? You want to try that? Lets go!

But on the note of running. I run because I enjoy running. I seriously get up to run and even today when I went out to the pool with family, I couldn't even wear a bathing suit because I am so big. Nothing fits me anymore. I want to wear a bikini to the pool this time next year. And I know I can do that, but you know what else? I want to have a toned body, I want to look sexy in that bikini I dont just want to be "skinny" I want to be Sexy! So just like I ran today when I got home from hanging out and relaxing..I will run tomorrow on my "rest" day because I have the energy and the will power to get my ass off the couch and do it.

Now that's what they are really mad about.


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