The First Bump in the Road

Today was my first bump in the road.

I hate to admit it, but If I don't admit this feeling then it will consume me. I have been getting up every morning since July 17th and running my c25k. I never thought twice about it, I woke up, put on my workout cloths, laced up my shoes, and got on the treadmill.

This morning was different... or was it. I got up, knowing I wouldn't have the same amount of time to workout b/c Jeremy had to take me to work (car's in the shop) at this point its about 6:30 am- 20 mins earlier than I usually wake up to run because Jeremy is doing his run about this time, but I get up, put on my workout cloths, grab my socks and head into the living room to lace up my shoes. I sit down on the couch knowing that if I sit to long I wont workout. So after about 8 mins of talking with my boyfriend I lace up my shoes and get on the treadmill. My body is tired, and I have this feeling of dread that if i dont finish this run then its over for me. So I start my warm up. After 5 mins of warming up its time for a 3 min run, I run at 5.0 mph like I do every morning and both of my knees start to hurt, not the normal burning I have been feeling in my right knee, but like a little sharp pain, like they are old and need to be walked out and stretched, but I cant get off the treadmill b/c I'm already pressed for time, I've started 10 mins later than I needed to, to finish my workout in time.

I finish my first run and my second walk comes around. Im about 9 mins into my workout at this point and my knee's dont hurt when I walk, so I tell mysellf that if they hurt on the second run then I will stop. Listen to your body I have always heard, and believe.

On the second run my knee's started to hurt again. So I stopped my workout with the notion I will workout, start an complete it tonight.

But here is where my fear comes in. What If I dont workout tonight? But then the only thing stopping me is me. Not this mornings slow start, not my knee's bc I have been icing them and stretching them during the day. Instead it would be me not wanting to workout. I cant let that happen. I am over-weight. I have goals and ambitions. I have dreams.

So I ask you, have I been weak, or strong???!

So though I had a mental, not physical, bump in the road I will prevail. I will workout tonight when I get home. I will remember who I am, and who I want to become.

This is the change, and the change is never easy.

I just wanted to add in my new HRM- It's purple, YAY, and I can't wait to sweat away the tears and pain.