Eventually I will train hard enough, and long enough, to be able to run a marathon. Right now however I am do Couch25k training a little app that is so hugely amazing! If you have never heard of it and want to start training your *never ran, jogged, or even walked fast body* to one day run a 5k, then this is for you!!
Oh my gosh, I never thought I would be able to run races (I know, funny right? I mean good grief I'm very capable of walking and running and I thought this!) its always been my dream but I honestly never knew that you had to build yourself up, that all runners have to build up that momentum and endurance to run the races they do. I always thought, if I cant just get up and run, I'll never be able to. Oh how wrong I was!!
Today is July 19th, 2012 and I am going to go home and walk/run week 1 day 3 of my training. It took almost 3 months to get myself off the couch and run just the first day (which for me was 3 days ago) and it took me being mad at my boyfriend, Jeremy, to do it. But that's all it took. I was frustrated, upset, confused about him and everything else that's happened lately in my life, and all I wanted to do was run out all those feelings. I wanted to push myself until I couldn't stand up. But like I said thats all it took. I was addicted again. I got up early, and I mean early the next morning, at 6:05am to be excat (which as you read my blog you will see that I never, ever wake up before like 7:05 am unless Jeremy wakes me by continuously talking to me lol) Anyways I wake up, or better yet, my alarm wakes me up and I actaully listen. My body immediatly come alive. I get up, Jeremy was already doing his morning run and just finishing up. I thought to myself, I'm going to run again tonight but 5 mins after he got off the treadmill I did something I have never done before in my life. I laced up my shoes and got on the treadmill.
Thats right.
I ran... in the morning. I was tired.. I wanted to quit but I didnt. I didnt allow myself to quit and "pick up" again that night when I normally run. Instead I stayed on the treadmill until I hit my 30 min workout. I only burned 210 calories but it was the sweetest calories I have ever burned! I was so proud of myself I beamed all day long!!
Weakness: 0
Strength: 2
My third great strength (btw the first being day 1 of working out!) of the week is what happened at lunch.
Since getting back on the "wagon" and counting my calories again (btw you can friend me on myfitnesspal.com my username is msmith2020) I have been making my lunch and bringing it to lunch with me. Before, when I was doing really well. I had to take about 2-3 weeks of making my own food before I trusted myself to not over order, or over eat at restaurants. My sister, her husband and my dad decide to go out to eat. So that being said, I brought my lunch to work yesterday I was already beaming because of my run so when they mentioned going out to eat, my initial response was that I couldnt go bc I knew I didnt trust myself to not over eat whatever I ordered.. as well as the chips on the table.. have I mentioned it was mexican food?
Whats bugging me is I want to spend time with my dad and family, though we all work together we dont get a lot of chances to hang out, So I think.. I can go. I walk back to the kitchen, grab my lunch box and say "ready". They look at me weird. They ask "your brining your lunch?" I was like "yes, actually I am" I brought a sandwich and carrots and dip to eat for lunch so nothing had to be heated up, nothing had to be altered or changed to eat. When we got to the resturant I pulled out my food and while they filled up on chips and hot sauce I ate my food bc I know that if I have tried to wait till they got their food all I would have thought about was, mm chips.. hot sauce.. fried food. Instead I kept my mind busy eating my pre counted calorie meal and at the end of the meal, when we walked out the door I was beaming with pride.
Me... proud of myself... that has not happened in so.. very... long!!
Weakness: 0
Strength: 3
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